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My life has been a cavalcade of screwed up misses and communicational fails. Fails that've left me feeling crappy and subpar.I have ADHD, Major Depressive Disorder, Complex PTSD, Generalized Anxiety and some type of undiagnosed autoimmune issue. Most times, going to the doctor makes me as if I were an inferior human being.
Several times, I've steeled myself just to the doctor and not have hurt feelings by the time I leave their office, but that almost never happens.I was alone. No "advocate". No family.
Usually no friends (schedule conflicts). Often times, by the end of my visit(s), I would be in tears; completely demoralized and embarrassed by something crass or snippy a clinician or one of their attendants had said.
"I would be doubtful about my own state of mind after being accused of hypochondria and somatic myalgia.
I would try to convince myself that these aches and pains really could be somatic-- (not a real pain but a discomfort made real by the mind. Not done intentionally by the patient, mind you, but completely ignored by the medical community as "who cares" basically."
Usually, somatic "delusions" (that's actually what they call them) are considered an alternative way a person's body might experience a mix of physical pain and emotional agony that it cannot make sense of.
Nearly every day for the past six years or so, I have been very sad. It doesn't look like it in photos on FB or Instagram --- but there's a hole somewhere in my soul that's not been remedied by any medical means as of yet. I don't want to live like this anymore. I know there are other people like me who feel the same way.
"The worst I've ever felt was when I was completely without hope. I don't want anyone to ever have to feel that way again if there's anything I can do about it."
That being said, I won't be living in the sad, "too dark inside the house" way that I was living previously. I've consciously chosen to press forward and turn my rage and willingness to learn and understand these things that make like nearly unbearable to its sufferers: anxiety, severe depression, atypical depression, cyclothymia, bipolar disorder, dependent personality disorder. The list goes on and on.
And when your issue is "invisible", who can you depend on to help you other than yourself?
My objective is to assist and advocate for people with severe anxiety, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Major Depressive Disorders.
"My goal is to reduce the anxiety that paralyzes by offering to coach them through small services. These services will include witnessing, listening and generally being available for consultation and support in my local area or online when I can be there."
I hope to help a diverse group of people acquire the tools they need to achieve their short and long-term goals.
Right now, I'm just blogging about my life in hopes to resonate with people I wouldn't normally meet in my everyday life.
Founder, Writer, Business Planner, Event Coordinator, Advocate & Human.
Houston, TX -
Avrin Kelly
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